I hope that I'm not revealing too much

alexisonfire=sex, dl and listen to them

2005-09-04T20:18:42Z

im a senior in 2 days. WTF. oh man am i gonna enjoy it.

workin out to try out for varsity volleyball, im a nervous wreck. i love volleyball and i miss it dearly. didnt play last season, personal issues i had to work out with myself. i was intimidated. haha sad. so im sore. im running and doin lots of stuff. played some vball with my dad yesterday, wow i actually hit the floor and dug a ball. haha it was sweet, cus i did it more than once! haha thats a huge achievement for negra. she used to be quite scared of the floor. wish me luck <3

im typin up the last part of my ap summer work. im bout to strangle myself. its so fuckkin annoying.

i havent been school shoppin yet. haha and i have one more day to do it too. awesome. my mom is retarded...she makes plans and then ditches on me. yesterday..couldnt. today cant, shes in syracuse. so tomorrow i guess, i hope, i pray. and i have to work on my last day of summer. how gay.

i slept over elmas on friday night. i got 2 hours of sleep, woke up at 8, and then worked for 7 hours. me being nocturnal and all, came home, sat down for ten minutes, and then worked out. haha i slept like a baby last night.

im rambling and i like it.

i want plans tonight.....but my parents arent home and i live in gananda and ppl are afraid to venture out to here to give me rides. it sucks. so im gonna do some ap hw. how lame.

phs is gay. it has a dress code now. what the fuck? i can wear slutty clothes if i want! i choose not to tho haha. but still, spaghetti straps? come on...

the one thing im not givin up is mini skirts, i love those. and its not like my ass is hangin out, my non existent ass lol.

im puttin this out there, download alexisonfire and ull have the time of ur life : )...

achilles and renouf show sept 10th with elma? i think so. im psyched.

homecoming the 17th, psyched as well. alcohol? i think so.

love,

negra

ill miss you summer *tear*, unforgettable memories

im so sunburned

2005-08-25T04:41:45Z

tonigth i had to say goodbye to a good friend, sam pitts is leaving tomorrow for john carroll university in freakin cleveland ohio. agh. im gonna miss that kid so much, we had so many good times this year. prom and ball date! and kate left me too, for cleveland ohio. ugh that stupid city suckin in all my loved ones : (. i already miss kate alot, but we still keep in touch thank god. im so proud of her, shes such a great girl. busy too....and shes the setter on the vball team! im so happy for h er. i know sam and kate will be really successful, theyre great kids <333

under kates command, im updatin livejournal cus she reads it all the time. haha so im giving her something to do! the reason ihavent been updatin is like, and sam dwyer agrees with me..is cus i feel like im just listin what i do and leave it there. not sayin im like really doin stuff everyday..but yea i list things and its boring!

all this college leaving stuff is makin me think, ugh im gonna have to do it next year. im gonna have to hug good bye my bestest friends in teh whole wide fuckin world, the girls that listened to me sob day after day at my lowest and the girls that make me cry laughing. god so many memories. sorry im gettin sappy, but i love them sooo much. breakfast club and everyone else is just so awesome, god its indescribable! aghhh im tryin not to thikn bout it cus senior year is coming up (in like two weeks!) and its gonna be a whole new year iwth my friends to have fun and just enjoy. and enjoy i will.

i got my sched today. im way too lazy to post it up, its all the way upstairs on my bed. pshh. im switchin some things arond ne way...like ap spanish. are u jokin me?

im pumped tmoorrow. it at first was supposed to be bc night...but since it wasnt offical...me and sam are secretly traveling to geneseo and stayin with matt and just hangin out there for the night. and then come back to penfield in the morning. cant wait, its gonna be a 45 min raod trip with my twin haha. we're such dweebs, but im excited cus i love matt and sam alot.

funny story: i was lookin at myself and decided i was too pale for summer...so i went outside cus it was a gorgeous day and pretty sunny. so i put my bikini on and some shorts got my ap stuff and my harry potter and went outside to lay out. i read some ap stuff and highlighted...cus im a dweeb. but then....the big one..i totally absorbed myself in harry potter. oblivious to what was goin on i just read on and on...i looked at my chest and it was beet red. AGH! i got burnt pretty bad lol...wlel mosttly on my chest and my face. haha its so embarrasssing. i feel like a beet. but it turns into a tan so im not sad bout that lol. ok so that wanst really that funny of a story..but look at it. it was dorky. haha.

tahts enough out of me for tonight. i love you all. <3

i cant stay here, you cant ask me

2005-08-08T04:43:13Z

hmm what have i been up to lately.

going out alot, which is good, not complaining.

makin new friends who are actually in my GRADE. haha last year was just seniors, seniors, and more seniors. now its gonna be my grade, my fellow classmates. ew how creepy haha. but theyre cool, at least the ppl ive been "seeing". so we went to this chris kids party the other night, andy told us to go. it was fun, but i wasnt intoxicated or ne thing. we had gone to jake and adams show thinger before that. i saw my good friend tim haha who ive met like once at joe beans and didnt get to talk to jake...cus hes like that. hm no good feelin vibes came from that. so we headed over to chris'. it was really hott in there, thats all i remember right now haha. slept at danie's...and watched alot of americas next top model.

god i have bad memory,every day just speeds by lately i cant keep track! i had to work today, i was tryin to give up the hours so i could go with my fam to canandigua or w/e to some nice park/beach.i wanted to go cus tamara and elma were goin and i hadnt seen them in forver. but no, negra had to work grrr. so i went to work, became insane with lindsay and then got picked up by melissa steenburgh to go to currys bbq thingy. i missed her, i hadnt seen her in sooo long, i didnt get to talk to her alot tho tonight : ( cus she disappeareed to watch a movie.

last night i was supposed to go out on a date with sam. but it turned into starbucks iwth mark opapari (sp?) and tim welk and steph and danie. haha good times tho. then fosters, saw my lovely kate lewis. i missed her. she is such a good person to talk to, o god i could forever lol. shes leavin in eight days. ugh ew, sad. then we went to andys, even tho i said i didtn want to. but then i did? idk change in mood, or me just being me and never meanin what i say lol. hung out there and then home.

ok this is realyboring im sorry, im just real bored. then my mom said i coulda stayed at andys till like one. ha good joke mom, why the fuck idndt u tell me before! cus last time i checked i was never allowed to places with beer and pot and a boys' house. hmmm im likin her talk tho, likin it alot :). ha even tho i lie out ofmy ass every time i go out ne way, what does it matter?

i become a diff person around some ppl. i hate it. its like i have an on and off switch. i dont even know what im thinkin right now, and im not gonna go into it cus its just gonna get me insome shit i dont want. idont like shit. shit stinks.

mk, boring entry is over. offically over.

you've really got a hold on me

2005-08-01T17:17:53Z

for all you negra livejournal readers out there, i have disappointed you. god i never update ne more, imbarely on the computer as it is lol. idk what im doin...either im at drivers ed (ugh still), at work, or out...or trying to figure out my college future.

im actually proud of what i have done, ive narrowed down some schools taht im really interested in and gettin some info on them and then scheduling campus tours. right now i have one down, for geneseo on august 13th and i couldnt be more excited. i need to see that campus if its the last tihng i do lol, its so pretty from the pics! but u never know, i just hope i really like it so then i can get accepted. eh i gotta up my SAT scores tho lol.

i have so much to do this month. i need to move on, i need to do ap work, i need to visit colleges, i need to do my drivers ed project, i need to pass drivers ed, i need to work an assload of hours, i need to pass my road test. god i need my licence so bad.

i have some wierd new will to move on lately. perhaps its being a bystander and seein it happen again and again, or perhaps its my new inspiration from kate cus we're like in the same fuckin boat. sorta...haha its complicated. i cant even vent on this thing cus i have nno idea what to say. i just need to go, i need to go far away from all that shit. which leads me to say that a random boy from pittsford mendon taht i met at some bonfire called me up the other night to go to a party that night...hahah i was so amazed b/c boys never call me! boys never ever call me...you know what i mean...like i know boys but not boys that, ugh idk im confusing myself lol.

i couldnt go cus i had plans that evenin ne way. i was with ngmaster, lindz, and sam and we went to marks house. then rode around and did sketchy things haha and then finally p hots with ppl and ended up at andys. mmm alcohol. lets just say i got pretty tipsy off like barely any beer, how freakin sad. and then i made a fool of myself. thats all im gonna say and im truly sorry for that haha. but it was fun cus uhhh i hadnt drank since like fuckin may. ew.ended up at sams house and made ppl go for a taco bell run. and then sam pitts disappeared and i remember me and matt tyrin to look for him but we weretn very successful. god i was loud.

ok movin on from that embarrasssing night...haha.

im really realy lookin forward to this senior year. like im just really hopeful right now bout it, b/c i know ill have tons of fun and hopefully new ppl will come into my life that will make it as excitin as junior year was. o geez im gettin sentimental here.

as for now i gotta get my ass to do aps and shit, toodles.

me + no sleep= constantly awaaakkkeee

2005-07-23T05:48:36Z

fun times have been happenin.

i was sad actually to see my grandma and my cousin leave me at the airport on wednesday. i cried. i surprised my self. something inside of me said it would be a looooong while until id be able to see them again. im happy for my grandma tho, she just got a brand new home...actually renovated her old one that was all fucked up from bullet holes and bombs and such. it was nice to see her all happy bout it, wish her the best. i bought her four pretty flowery dessert dishes for her new home. lol i was proud of my thoughtful self : )

it was samanthas bday on wednesday. and yes i made it to her house. started out with me sam and ali at bill grays then grew to be random ppl at her house. we couldnt think of ne thing to do so we all went outside and pretended we were ten years old again. ya know, frisbee, big red orange ball, and playgrounding. we discovered sams sex hut too, so hott. it was soooo nice to spend time with my friends again. it felt like years that i had hung out wiht them, worry free and not worryin bout if my mom was gonna be mad at me or if i felt like i was leavin my cousin out or something.

we ended up goin to sam pitts pool where he lifegaurds and had some after hours swimming. soon we got in trouble and had to run haha. sharing a bowl of sesame chicken with matthew was so good, god i love sesame chicken. thank you matt for introducin me to that delicious food.

us girls and matt and jeff ended up at sams house. soon jeff left so matt was a pimp. we all layed out in sams driveway till like four in the morning...so good. i was so awake. idk whats wrong wit me, i hate sleeping. i kept wantin to have adventurous walks, but no one would. party poopers. and frankly i wasnt bothered by the fact that we had no alcohol that night, even tho we planned we would drink. i was totally just satisfied sittin around and talkin cus i hadnt done that in a wihle lol.

got two and a half hours of sleep, had to wake up at seven for drivers ed. almost killed myself driving. then spent like alllll day at elmas with my gross witch hair. then made a run to starbucks with sam and got horny over a mint mocha chip haha. good times man. now i feel like my normal self. i even went out tonight, big deal lol ladies and gentleman...three nights in a row! went to javas with jeff lindz and sam. and we sat int he corner where the wierd girl that always reads books sits.

ok im blab too much. by the way im really awake rihgt now....and i havent actually slept in o about three days. is this a condition ne one know?

p.s. i have a darien lake ticket that id like to use up before the summers up. u should all come with me and have some good old fun ; )

i always knew you were such a sucker for that

2005-07-16T18:02:30Z

im starting to miss my life, where i had friends and hippie nights and alcohol. ugh ive been on lockdown for sooo long. not to be mean or selfish or ne thing, but i sorta cant wait till my cousin and grandma leave on wednesday. just in time for samantha dwyers 17th birthday :)

ha, the difference is so great. i was sooo excited to have my cousin here and have fun, but nope my parents got even more ridiculous. curfew: 11:00 pm. no sleepovers. cant go anywhere where my cousin isnt...which is alot of places since shes kind of antisocial these days. yea, question there...what happened?

i missed a great party last night. even awesomer my drunk friends called me and woke me up. rawr. haha im not holdin a grudge no worries.cept it took me sooo long to figure out who kevin kirchoff was hahahahah...he was talkin to me on the phone and i had no idea who he was. i was so tired, dont ask.

went to the mall last night...after a nice long day of sittin in the sun wiht elma (we're tryin to get tan, not workin on me but elma looks liek a black girl lol) and bought gifts for fam in bosnia since they got me some stuff haha. god im so poor. agh kill me, and theyre cuttin hours at chase pitkin. o danny wegman why must you do this now?!

so im gonna hold out for a few days...and once we drop them off at the airport negras goin straight to sams for her bday! mm bacardi 03 sounds sooo good right bout now. ok that was way too blunt lol. i havent seen sam in soo long. i mean i saw her a few days ago...but she was sittin across the table from me for gods sake. buuuuttt...we did get a chance to pee in a sketchy soccer field by tamaras house together haha. ok so now i can add that to my list of strange places ive peed: spins roof, soccer field, stephs front yard etc etc.

another lil tidbit bout my life...im so obsessed wtih my space right now..its disgusting. and...negras quite the driver these days. except the other day when i cut some old man off on the fuckin expressway, almost got rear ended hahahha oops 0 : )

**its time to sit back and rewind**

ooooo the drama....

2005-07-12T03:45:10Z

interesting week.

first it was stephs bday! i had work till 6...and then matt and jeff came over (after lyin to me bout coming "soon") to make brownies with me for stephs bday. yes, i have my own boy helpers help me cook cus i suck at cookin so much. so after tryin to figure out two tablespoons and how many eggs and shit we put our brownies in the oven : )

so we sat and sat and tried to make an escape plan to get out of my house sooner so jeff could go back to his family grad party (dumb boy to leave it in teh first place....but hey it is stephanie harkola) so we decided to bring the brownies in the hott pan in jeffs car and drive real fast to jeffs house. my mom didnt know i was goin to jeffs...she thought i was goin to stephs. ne way...so matt gets into jefffs car with oven mitts on holding the brownie pan hahahhaa. the gayest thing ive ever seen, serously. even worse when i commented that the sun was out that day since it was rainy all day...matt says the best qoute ever "yo wheres the rainbow at?" now evaluate that please...holding brownies in oven mitts and askin hwere the rainbow was. so gay.

after i laughed and made it to jeffs hosue we hung out wiht his family for a while. i love his uncle hector thats all i got to say, and a plus was his hott ass cousin haha : ) ppl ate our brownies too but we managed to scrap up some for steph, since they were for her ne way lol.

made it to stephs finally when she called us and chilled there for a while and then headed back to jeffs house. so pretty much that evenin was back and forth and back and forth. played intense spill ur heart, and helped jeff out wiht his chick problems. personaly, i think its gay. i dont even know what to think bout it cus i love her and him and im not gonna get in the middle.

i blab so much, im so sorry haha.

so there was stephs bday. tamaras was the next day. got stuck goin to marshalls (random) wiht my mom and ppl and got a hott bathin suit lol and then met up jeff and tamara at starbucks. so glad i did, i was goin crazy. we sat at starbucks and then headed off to charlotte beach. good old charlotte, haha good times. then met up yeliz and ahmad at lickety splits (very dirty name for an ice cream shop, i think lol) im sad for yeliz, shit she goes thru i could never.

omg this is such a long entry.

ok so yesterday i worked then went to stephs and saw sam and danie who i hadnt seen in FOREVER. and i was so hoappy that lindz visited me at work! ne way so i was with them for a while chillin then my mom picked me up, i got ready, and literally like speeded all the way to sam pitts grad party. sweet pool. lol i coldtn wait to get in it. alot of my loves were there i was happy, esp elma. except no one would go int eh water with me! and kate came, i was quite happy to see her. strange how id on ly seen her like 4 times, but we click pretty well. shes a very very fun girl and im very very disappointed with a certian someone that bothers her. grr boys should die.

left sams and headed home to get ready for pulse. hahaah yea i know its a trashy place but me and my friends love it there cus we can act trashy and have fun! so like a bunch of us headed there after much time wasting. it was fun, except for unecessary drama that pissed the shit out of me. aghhh ppl dont deserve that. they really dont. i wont get into it, its just shitty. idk im just pissed. hahaha and me and kate and tamara got to go in the cages....so slutty but it was sooo much fun!

spent all day at the pool today, i got burnt, sorta. i like to call it sunkissed. just my face, which shold go away by senior pics on thursday. hopefully or ill look retarded in teh yearbook.

ok enough blabbin for one entry im so freakin tired. early mornin tomorrow, kill me.

now i obssess over you

2005-07-07T01:32:47Z

july fourth was goooood.....half of the day at least. i had to wake up early and work 7 long boring hours at good old chase pitkin. i got out went home and then changed and took a shower and headed to stephs. then we got dropped off at yeliz's and did the same thing we do every year lol. what can i say its tradition! except now there were diff ppl, but it was the same thing nonetheless. we walked to harris hill and got ice cream and stuff. it was so crowded at the park, ppl everywehre! but it was nice seeing ppl i love again like ali kivinan. i missed that girl <3 fireworks were gooood. satisfactory lol. ppl wre coupling up and i felt dumb so i zoned out

i miss sam and lindsay and danie. danies back from new jersey so she better get butt to me and hang out wiht me! and sam and lindz come back saturday wooo hooo! im so proud of them, theyre helping unfortunate ppl in nyc, how cute.

ive noticed a recent obsession with myspace...and im tyrin hard to stay away from it cus i know if i sign up id be on the comp allll day lookin at pics and evertying. idk why but its addicting im not gonna lie lol.

went to sophies last friday. stayed there till like 11 cus my mom was gay and gives me a godamn curfew. she accidentally went to sophies to pick me up, except i was at stephs. ha and she saw a bunch of drunks and alcohol everywhere when the door opened. and surprisingly she wasnt mad, just made sure i didnt drink. total lie right there, i had alcohol lol but it had worn off cus i hadnt drank thaaatt much. im so good like that : )

my dad got hurt at work again : ( he makes me so worried bout him. he works so much for our family its ridiculous, i mean my mom does but not as intensely. my dad works two jobs and like alll day. i feel so bad i wanna give him a hug. he got a boo boo on his finger like me, but grosser lol.

drivers ed is goin goood. im pretty good at drivin lol i must say. i drive home from work and shit all the time now.

omg all my entries are so pointless, im so fuckin bored!

*make a move* new song by incubus, download it and enjoy it cus its fuckin amazing.

begging for big news

2005-07-01T19:59:13Z

ugh so im really bored.

i feel like im gonna get really out of shape this summer. but im not gonna focus on that in this entry.

hmmm what has happened in my life. lets rewind to last week. ummm actually go to go out with matt, sam, and ali and see kyles lil show thingy. thennn we left and went to kfc to visit josh, and wow can i say thats a really sketchy place to work? freaked me out haha. then bill grays and met up with jeff and steph.

wait i just realized that was soooo long ago, why am i talkin bout that now? ne way long story short i got attacked by a bungee cord in matts jeep. um yea hurt pretty bad, ouch. my finger was all bloody and matt freaking out did not help. so me bieng the brave girl i am i didnt cry and just ordered matt to drive fast so i could get a bandaid and ice lol, he was droppin his sis off at home. then he chased me around with that peroxide shit that stings, i almost cried when he poured it over my boo boo. now this was no little injury, my pointer and the one next to it was alll puffy and purple and bloody. eww.

then i had to go home.

that was totally pointless but i was just lookin at my finger and it reminded me of it. i felt bad for matt cus shepard came to his door and said he couldtn walk on grad day : ( he needed a big hug then...but i had a huge disablilty. so all i could do was sit there and be quiet, i felt so bad/useless. i hate not being able to help him, or anyone. i dont ever help ppl, i seem to like shut down and act like im a mute or something.

ugh i get shivers when i think of that night cus both of our nights went down the drain in a matter of 30 minutes...at the same time. freaky.

i went to javas the other night...and omg saw dan foster. no comment on that.

i did get to see my sam pitts tho, thank god. i felt so pittsless these days. hahah that sounds so wrong.

and jeff and elma are real cute, im glad she talked to her mom. i love her mom. that was so much easier than what i had to go thru with my parental units.

ok im just babbling cus i have nothin to do till like 6 when i have to work...then get out and head over to sophies with steph and sam and maybe my cousin. hope it turns out good ; )

p.s. negra is takin drivers ed next week...which means i get my licence before senior year! ugh that is if i pass lol, pray for me?

luvablenegra3 @ 2005-06-29T13:32:00

2005-06-29T17:52:41Z

Name 10 things you hate. Spread the hate by tagging 5 people to do the same.

Tagged by stephypoo15

1. these things..but im bored so i do it?

2. not hanging out with my friends b/c of really gay reasons

3. having a curfew

4. not having a licence

5. scumbags that think they can get away with anything

6. prettyboys/metrosexuals...disgusting

7. humidity..or anything that makes my hair huge and frizzy

8. being grossly pale

9. taco bell, ketchup, salad...i could go no forever, but i hate certain foods lol

10. having your heart broken : (

im tagging:

sammifrommiami

samurai6354

italian sap

runningrun20

sexkittenkaren

why dont you show me...

2005-06-28T15:53:31Z

ahhh life...is...boring. well not really, for some reason im just really impatient with everything and everyone. i just wanna go out and leave my house and my family and my cousin and my grandma. i cant stand anyone bosnian right now. except elma lol, she came over yesterday and we died of heat stroke. cus we dont have AC. aghhh dont even ask how i survive.

so it turns out that my cousins a totally diff person from what she used to be last summer. last summer she was crazy, wanted to party and drink and smoke like allll the time. now...all she wants to do is watch tv, drink coffee with my parents, go to the mall, and the movies. now..i hate watchin tv and im not a HUGE fan of the movies cus, again, im super add these days. soooo for example when i wanna go out wiht my friends...she doesnt really want to. so i get in trouble for not hanging out with her. id rather kill myself than watch tv..unless its OC lol, but thats besides the point.

so last night i was just fed up with everyone and i was in such a bad mood. even worse, everyone wanted to go to the movies! yea...um thats the second time in a week. now i know ppl go more than once, but not negra cus she cant sit that freakin long. so i was out of options and i really wanted to get out of the house...so i went to the movies to see guess who with my sis, cousin, and my mom. my sis has a huge attitude problem, my cousin and mom are like giddy best friends and then theres me whos seen guess who already and not havin much fun. so that night was a bust.

i did however go to joshys grad party....after a long and painful weekend of family fun. ugh kill me. we went to charlotte as a fam on saturday....missin graduation...and then sunday to some beach in canandigua or w/e...missing jon's grad party. i was so pissed. my mom is so unorganized, just planned it the minute i woke up. i felt bad i ditched jons party. jeff came and saved me from my family and we went to joshs and got eaten alive by mosquitos. gah i look like i have chicken pox.

mk enough complainin in one entry. ugh got work at 3-6 today...sooo u can visit if you want, cus id appreciate it : ) and can someone make plans with me? aka...stephanie freakin harkola.

examples of negra being dumb:

2005-06-22T14:48:43Z

1. i thought the chem test was at 8 today, nope me and mike found out it was at 12. so i went back to bed.

2. once i was in bed i had a sex dream. hahaha cant say i didnt enjoy it. oh snap!

3. the phone rings, i get up to get it. i collapse on the floor, my ass is all scratched cus i was wearing shorts. i try to get up once more, nope legs not working yet, i fall again. so i just sat there and let the phone ring cus i was already fed up with today.

4. i havent been studying for ne thing. math is gonna be so bad tomorrow : /

5. i played volleyball with my dad yesterday and fell alot..on the grass. so now my legs are gross, but its goin away. im so dumb, i miss volleyball : (

ne way...other news, my mom forbid me to do ne thing the rest of the summer cus i didnt wanna go to niagra falls with them this saturday. yea too bad its graduation day and i thought i was goin with yeliz...to see my best friend graduate. and then she got mad cus i coudltn take my cousin to jons party on sunday...too bad it was invitation only. shes goin with me to yelizs ne way the same fuckin day. wow. i got so mad i like cried. im such a wuss. niagra falls is so boring, who the fuck cares bout waterfalls.

chem today, i should study? eh w/e. its so easy ne way.

...but thats not how you feel

2005-06-21T01:39:48Z

uhh alright. well ive gotten a sample taste of summer. and it looks good.

english final, easy and tedious and it just made me mad i was wasting 2 hours of my life on gay ass easy shit. gah haha i hate english finals. im actually not minding taking the history, chem, and math tests as opposed to the english one cus at least theyre challenging.

o and got my SAT scores today, so bad. i know i can do better. and all my friends got way better. yea im a dork, and i better get into a good college. i got so worried today i felt like puking. yup...dork right there.

been shoppin alot...esp during this crappy weather we had the past like 3 days. and ive been working. gah i have work. but working next to steph and lindz made it oh so much better, esp when me and steph laugh bout nothing in front of customers and they think we're the dumbest shit in the world haha.

today i realized i have a swearing problem. who the fuck cares lol.

last night jeffy called me to go to a car show with him and josh. and since i love car shows, i went. i wanted my cousin to come but she felt sick and didn wanna go. but then i got in trouble for not takin her with me...cus u know im supposed to be attached to her or something. so ne way we went to charlotte to find that the cops didnt let ne one on the parking lot to like wander. so we sat and waited for other ppl to come. soon kate (my new awesome friend) and timmy finnell came, then stout and his girl, and then matt and elysse. i was scared to hang out with the couple..since u know...you know.

so we walked around, in the cold, on the pier and everything. it was realy nice cus i love all those kids. esp josh flashin everyone with his albino white chest. and me and jeff pretendin like we ere goin out cus elma wasnt there lol. yup i was the other girl to hang out with lol. kates really nice, i like her. i didnt really talk to matt, i was mad at him, for reasons im not gonna get into cus ppl already know what happened ne way.

i was supposed to go to danies for bc night with the girls but i ran a lil late lol cus we ended up at applebees. buuutt matt and elysse couldtn join us cus matt got pulled over and got two tickets. tsk tsk. im gonna beat some sense into him one day.

bc night was good. "grab the left one"...its the bigger one. enough said haha ;) and danie and steve are cute hehe.

steph came over and we went to the mall. i got a mini skirt that seemed to not fit me when i came home. gr i have to return it. damn it.

i gotta go im gettin in trouble for being on and not talkin to my cousin and grandma. ppl drive me so crazy sometimes.

good luck to everyone on history tomorrow, i havent studied not even a shit lol. oops.

suuummmmmmerrrrrr!

2005-06-14T20:06:13Z

this song reminds me when i was a ball of depressed-ness way back in the grand old days of january. *shudder* worst times of my life, k maybe not.

ne way...on a happier note...its hot out and schools almost over! im so fuckin pumped. except the heats gettin to me, havin no AC or ne thing like that, i go crazy sometimes. and my slackin skills have sky-rocketed. gah. i cant do ne thing ne more, i just wanna hang around and eat and laugh lol. laughin is so much fun.

mmk, havent updated since like ball time. well my cousin, alma, is stayin at my house for 6 weeks from bosnia. i cant wait till all the fun starts, when i can go out and not be locked up in phs for like 6 hours a day. my grandma also came with her, my moms side, and uh shes annoying. i know she means well, but sometimes ppl can be really annoying when they wanna hug u alot and act all proper, yelling at me to dress like a real woman and talk like a real woman, even sit like a real woman. like hell i will, im fuckin 17 i dont give a SHIT right now lol. me and alma just talk bout how much she annoys us in english, its quuite fun. and i want all my friends to meet her, shes kinda shy and softspoken when u meet her but when she gets in the mood shes sooo much fun. partier too lol.

i went shoppin with jeffy and sammy and alma yesterday. i bought a halter and a beater. im so proud of my shoppin abilities. god what a good day. except for the strange downpour...and listenin to mike jones in jeffs car lol. so strange.

god this year has been so diff from all. i was so confident, big step for me. serously. boyfriends, friends, and alcohol. mmm yum. and hahahah me and elma noted on how much ass we got all year, quite a lot actually compared to last year. hahah o man i cant believe i just said that. this year just made me love all my friends and new ones even more. and all the seniors that i will miss dearly have been awesome this year, i cant believe i was friends with all them, theyre so much cooler than i am! hahah yup im in my "im a dork" mood where i m really thankful for this year. yea..some downs along the way. but hey it happened for a reason, still affects me, but im rollin along lol. no worries. hopefully next year (SENIOR YEAR!) will be as awesome...with boys, my licence, and my girls. gah cant wait, yet im sscared shitless. im fuckin graduatin next year! ok enough bout that or ill like start to cry.

ball=amazing

2005-06-06T23:36:37Z

hectic weekend. friday stayed in the library for like 2 or 3 hours doin hw and english project. ew i wanna puke when i think bout it. then samantha dwyer came and picked me up in her hug SUV. we were gonna go to matts that night for a party but it got too late and i had to go home cus of SAT's the next morning. puke. sean and jake came over for a while and we hot tubbed. and it was really awkward cus sean wanted to make out with me. i was like back off u fuckin prick. haha sorry im not ready for that YET.

SAT's =disgustingly long. i think i did ok but thats cus i skipped some questions i didnt even wanan take time thinking bout lol. bad idea.

theeennnnn ball! got ready at home, freaked out buot my hair cus it wasnt lookin right. but ended up ok i guess. went to yelizs and did makeup and finishing touches there. she looked so freakin pretty i was sooo jealous. she fuckin owened that dress. i wore lindsays hott pink dress hehe.my boobs would not stay in the dress omg. pics are in my link in my profile. redr0ses10. check it out. tamara and elma came to cihll with us and take pics and stuff. i felt bad cus they felt sad, and i didnt know what to do : /.

then my hot date sam pitts came and picked me up and we headed over to chris's where everyone was meeting. omg everyone looked smashing, and im not lyeing. melissa was stunning. laurie was cute as hell. eve was beautiful too. and yeliz...cant even describe her. the guys were just adorable i wnated to hug everyone lol. jeffy foster, my lil jeffy foster was sooooo hott! we took lots of pics there and mingled till the bitchy limo driver came. god he was anal i wanted to shoot him. he made us sign some dumb contract...promising no alcohol or drugs. damn lol.

got to ball and i just stared out into all those hott ppl and was comepletly mesmerized. even ppl i didnt even know i like complimented i was just in a good mood. and i was def in the mood for dancing. i love the seniors im sooo sad theyre all leaving me. i made so many great friends this year, and ironicallly enough it was due to matt cus no one would have noticed me if i hadnt met him. im thankful for that. and it was sooo good to see my too beautiful best friends having the time of their lives as seniors, sukhi looked gorgeous. god i love her. i took pics of everyone, or tried to. i was just so excited to be there. all the boys looked very sharp, very sharp indeed. and my junior girls were there....ali, sophs, and danie. hehe we're so cool.

after dinner, some good chicken and mashed potatoes, and dessert (wierd mousse shit) the music started. now that was the funnest part of the evening by far. from the first to the last song i was on teh dance floor. my feet were swollen by the end of the night, gross. yup dirty danced the night away with all my favorites...and some randoms. sam was a realy goto dancer, and so was matt my gosh. conor riley made me really happy, we sang britney spears to each other. gotta love it. i was pooped by the end.

i was sad it was over cus i was having such a good time! but laser tag was so much fun too. lol me and yeliz just screamed everytime we got shot and i ran into all the pitch dark walls the whole time. i was so tired i couldnt even run. then ihop/dennys which didnt work out...i was fuckin starving. so we made a run to mcdonalds and then anthony salatas for a hwile until me and yeliz had to go to her house. ate brownies and talked bout allt he boners we felt all night hahahah. so funny.

and our plans for makin boys jealous worked out pretty good. we were so hott it worked perfectly : )

all in all this weekend was really good. i couldtn have asked for a more perfect time, im so thankful i got to go with my good friend samuel b/c hes a really fun kid and i love bieng his date 2 times in a row! and im so thankful for all my friends and my new ones that i made. and i just hope that eveyrone has an amazing time at college cus they all deserve it. next year will def be diff without everyone that i see like everyday. im so glad i got to be part of someones last time to have fun with their closest friends. and im hoping i can push aside all the gay shit that gets to me cus when i was just dancina nd havein a good time, it felt good to have my head clear and just have fun. so im hoping this summer my mindset will be jsut that....hopeful, optimistic, and open-minded. and yet still stay in touch with certain ppl that have changed my life so much in such little time.

sorry, really long entry. i havent written in a looong time.

snore im so sleepy

2005-05-29T03:42:46Z

i dont know why im up right now, i think its partly cus incubus is playing and im way too lazy to leave brandon boyd. sad how no ones on, then again its a saturday night and its like 11:30. hm, negras home? wtf. i was supposed to go to elliots bday thing with ngmaster and twinny, but just gave up cus im way too tired. haha and now im sittin alone doin nothing. what a waste of a good weekend.

wasnt a total waste....after we finally got out of babysittin lil kids till freakin midnight. melissa had ppl over last night. me and sam, being the coolest juniors ever, were the only juniors there...strange, but good. woke up in my clothes on a recliner with my ass cramping. not comfy. it was a good night tho, me and jeff dominated beer pong ; ) drunk melissa had nothin against us haha. i soon found myself yelling at drunk matt over the phone, while i myself was drunk, with a labatt in my hand. very strange situation, but i laugh when i look back at it hahaha. ball better bring good festivities...

went tannin and fell asleep in the booth. real smooth negra. and i got really scared when the bulbs turn off cus they make this wierd loud sound and well...its scary.

had work today. longest 5 hours of my life, esp with a tummy ache and headache. eh, not cool. and i got talked to about coming in late, the latest ive been in was 10 min. i usually come in 3-4 min late, but they dont really seem to mind. w/e.

eh...ok...good night.

BC: can we try not to be too busy for each other? not cool.

today is gonna be the day

2005-05-27T20:04:07Z

wonderwall by oasis makes me really happy. esp when this week was a bitch. im in quite a cheerful mood today, and yesterday afternoon. jon cheered me up quite a bunch when he called me and demanded that i go shoppin with him. so i did and spent money, pretendin like i had alot...when i really dont. i dont like payin for everything, but thats what i asked for when i got a job lol. now i have to pay for ball, half of drivers ed, cell phone bills, my own clothes, my own shit whatever i need, tannin (only a week cus im not a tanorexic...haha jon). gah annoying. but i get by with a decent paycheck every week. o chase pitkin you are good to me.

im tannin again, for a week. im excited to look cute with slight color for ball lol. im borrowing lindsay's dress she had on for prom. wanna see pics? well you can on: www.webshots.community/user/negra17/ mmm hott pink, *drool*. hopefully ill look as beautiful as lindz did in her dress, god shes pretty.

another excitin thing in my life is that im drivin now a days. no i dont have my licence...yet. but im makin it my lifelong goal to pass my drivers test sometime in aug or sept...so i can have the ulitmate senior year and not depend on ppl for rides. god its gonna be hard, lets just say im not the smartest driver. im pretty smooth, just not smart haha. be careful, be very careful. but with practice and drivers ed this summer, im gonna be fine. i hope.

june10th: my cousin alma and my grandma are coming for 6 weeks (?) to visit. im actualy kinda excited cus shes really fun. whats gonna be a problem is my grandma, shes a lil hard to deal with sometimes. but she doesnt mind boys, which is a plus lol cus then my parents listen to whatever she says. score. and i hope my cuosin alma will fit in with my friends. she smokes a lot of weed and drinks quite a bunch hahahaha, so we're good wtih the rebelness lol. no shes not a stoner or a badass. lol shes perfectly normal its jsut that its not illegal over there so she does ne thinf she wants...wich was a plus when i visited them in bosnia for 3 weeks. mmm. she just wont be able to do it that much when shes over here, esp smoke lol. o man we're gonnn have so much fun, i cant wait till my friends meet her, theyll love her. i love her lol.

its my daddys bday today, happy birthday dad! i came home and overcame my fear of cooking. i decided to bake him cupcakes, which are in the oven right now. shit i should go check on them......oops i kinda messed up haha. i put too little in the lil cups. eh o well, hell love them, esp when i pile on the icing muhahha.

ugh so many research projects lately. 3 day weekend tho should be enough to do hw and work and hang out with my loved ones. o shit, SAT's are next sat. eh i dont really give a shit since i did okay i guss on the PSAT's. ugh w/e im in such a slacker mood lately. intense day next sat, SAT's, hair appt, yelizs to get ready, then chris'??...and then ball : ) dont know plans bout after ball...matt invited me to some party, we'll see. agh i love to dance, watch out bitches. alcohol better be one of the participants after ball, since prom fucked that up. eh w/e ill still have sooo much fun. ok enough ball talk.

i miss talkin to alot of ppl. idk like lately i havent talked to a bunch of my friends in a while....like for no reason. not cus im mad at them or smoeting gay like that, just idk havent. like steph danie and lindz. i miss them. i mean i see steph in the h alls and stuff, but i dont see danie and lindz. sam i see allll day hahah and its quite sweet, esp when we talk bout what gets us horny in free...just us two at the table, hahah so fuckin dorky. breakfast club needs some quality time together, and possibly spill ur heart cus im dying to know bout spencer and steve (hint hint).

mk this entry as waaaaayy too long. everyone have a nice memorial day weekend, have fun ; )

luvablenegra3 @ 2005-05-21T00:57:00

2005-05-21T05:13:11Z

mmmmk, long scummy week. long week where i did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. gah im such a lazy bum. i wonder how bad im gonna be when im a fourth quarter senior. sweet :).

worked last night....missed oc finale. oh but no worries, my faithful dad taped it for me. omg, such a good episode. my props go out to sandy, kirsten def needed some rehab. it made me kinda really sad tho. and wow, marissa shot trey. intense times ten! hahahah i love this show, im kinda glad tho that treys out of the picture for a while. him and that skanky girl jesse were pissin the hell out of me, esp when marissa and ryan were gettin back together. i love when theyrre a couple, so fuckin cute. and julie and jimmmy...again!? whaaatt. w/e floats their boat. gah cant wait till fall, god its way too far away.

ok enough oc talk, i seem dorky lol. went out tonight. finally steph left her house, im glad shes healthy now. we had an adventure tonight. elma came over and then we headed to stephs...got picked up by clay. picked up ngmaster and twinny...and then pretended to go to the movies. but we went to get food and then javas. i love javas. two guys came in the bathroom with me, yes two strangers that i started talkin to while i was waitin for the bathroom. i gave them a tour of the girls bathroom cus they were curious as to how nice it was. yea, sketchy but i didnt get raped or ne thing, no worries. hahah clay was scared of the gay ppl. gay-dar...as sam says. we went walkin in andys grandmas award winning garden too. it was freaky as hell, cus it was dark. we too sexy pics and posed with budha haha, awesome night.

my mom was poopy and made me come home. but i felt bad cus i woke her up to come get me from stephs...even tho i told her i needed a ride home, duh. i guess she tought id get one. yea right who the fuck wants to drive out to here....

me and elma sat on my tramp for like an hour lookin at all the twinklin stars and listenin to underoath and oasis. had a good talk bout how much we wanted some ass and making out lol. so sad.

bc night tomorrow after work. very excited.

and did i mention i have like four projects due int he next like 2 or 3 weeks. ugh kill me.

annnddddd...im goin to ball wth sam pitts! things didnt work out with my cousin, tamara. he wanted to take her and she really waned to go but her mom was a retard and didnt let her go. time was runnin short, me owing alot to pitts decided to go with him. itll be so much fun, i love our limo. slammin six is...well slammin lol. excited to dance with pitts again, so fun. and get dressed up wtih yeliz and suks! aghhh o june 4th, hurry ur ass up and come here.

luvablenegra3 @ 2005-05-16T17:49:00

2005-05-16T22:05:58Z

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fuck you

whew ok...weekend was good. saturday went furniture shoppin for my room. not so fun when ur arguing with your mom tellin her that fuckin fabric doesnt match anythingin my room. then yeliz's house for her party that night. um yea got really drunk and danced alot. i got the nick name "momma negra" cus im a party mom all the time. house was packed, it was hot. i love the seniors. did i mention i drank? haha. got 2 hours of sleep...worked at 8:30 the next day. busiest day at chase pitkin that ive ever seen, worked fuckin 8 hours. came home and passed out for a nice couple of hours, got up, ate dinner, did "some" hw, and then passed out again.

if ppl are still talkin bout the party by wednesday im bringing my gun to school and shootin everyone. wow negra ur a bitch right now. sorry.

say it ain't so. your drug is a heartbreaker.

o prom, how fast u went by

2005-05-11T19:37:39Z

ok...prom. here we go.

busy day lemme tell ya. went to get my hair done, ha...brushed my hair and everything. steph saw, i looked like a freakin monster. but in the end it was a good hairdo, nice and slicked back. no curls :) my mom didnt like it cus she wanted my natural curls but i didnt give a shit, as long as i looked hott haha. ok so then drove 100 mph to yelizs house and she magically made me really attractive with her talents with makeup. got dressed there and sped to sam pitts house. met his mom, real cute. we took pics and such and i got my gorgeious corsage, so pretty. but by the time i got to harro east it was dying : (, my luck lol. but i still kept it cus it was pretty. my date, samuel pitts, looked hott as ever. the kid looks good in a tux lol.

headed over to danies house where everyone met. i just gotta say that everyone looked so handsome and beautiful. it was really nice to see everyone looking radient, i have such beautiful friends! so stood on display for the paparazzi for like 45 min. my mouth hurt alot. but we got good pics...which currently im tyrin to get on photo bucket then on webshots so ppl can look at them, haha but im slow and lazy.

prom was really fun. never danced so much in my life. my legs are still a lil sore lol. everyone looked so pretty it was exciting. took lots of pics there too.

after prom however got all fucked up. im not even gonna get into it cus itll only frusterate me. i had fun at stephs tho with the girls minus danie. drank some, laughed some. good memories tho. the whole night was just a big ball of awesome lol. cant believe it passed by so quickly tho.

the whole jealous bitter bitch thing is coming back. i hate when im a monster. a big fat ugly monster. me and matt arent goin to ball together ne more. thought it would be a bad idea, too much drama and shit. not healthy. idk not gonna try to explain it. and im done questioning eveyrthing. cus then it just makes me even more paranoid, even when ppl tell me stuff theyve heard and shit. i just block it out and go on being bitter for my own personal reasons. but we're friends, good enough i guess.

itd be really fun to go to ball tho cus then id dance with suks and yelz who i love more than death.

coming back to school is killing me after that weekend. i cant focus or do ne thing. kinda makes me sad that the years endin soon tho, many friends are leaving me : (

everyone who is sad should listen to incubus, puts a smile on my face at least.

i overheard...

2005-05-07T17:50:49Z

um ok...so its prom day and im fuckin pumped.

eh this week has been so stressful, ive even been breaking out lol. ew. awesome right before prom, but thats ok yeliz has magical powers with makeup, no joke. so studied my brains out allll day, took off thursday to sit on my ass and teach myself u.s. history. im sorry hijo that i missed 2 days of your life : ( ill make it up, i promise. then the test, it was long and somewhat hard. im pretty confident on the three essays we had to write. not soo happy buot the mulitiple choice, too much thinking lol.

i felt so good after the test, ap is fuckin done. at least an hour and a half of hw cut off from each night. ugh makes me wanna puke.

went to yelizs house after school, walked to dunkin doughnuts and saw melissa (who i love to freakin death <3)...i bet sams gonna be so jealous muhahaha. then chase pitkin to visit steph and stare at blake, cus frankly he is realy hott. he said hed get me a pass to a mcquaid dance next month...haha score.

then nails at some chinese place of course. totally relaxing after a long week. then home and then uncles bday celebration. me and elma took retard pics of each other and i peed in my pants. haha, good times.

and now i must go get ready....cus its prom day! see everyone there, u better all look fuckin hott so i can take pics with my new digital camera...and then the alcohol starts flowing in ; ) gah, ok im really goin now.

brandon boyd=sex

2005-05-03T19:31:11Z

im tryin not to be the jealous type, tryin really hard.

what if i turned into a big scary monster and terrorized everyone? ha, awesome. cus sometimes id really like to do that these days. become one MEAN looking curly haired girl....or just "IT" as in summer 2004.

ap english exam wasnt as bad as i thought it would be....killoran has trained us well. except the essays had nothin to do with english whatsoever so i bsed my lil way through them. came back to school and skipped american studies and hung out and did some hw. ew what a day.

ap us history is friday, im nervous as hell. but im confident that im gonna know at least some stuff, or me stayin up every night past 12 isnt gonna be worth it. grr.

todays my eneventful day, just gonna sleep and do hw. mmm i like it. i cant go tannin tho, my parents are gonna be too lazy i can feel it. i wouldnt wanna be orange ne way.

o man proms on saturday....cant wait. i wish i could hang out with sam pitts a lil more, gotta love him, since he is my date and all. cus then it wont be wierd lol. actually i dont think it will, positive thoughts lol. o man then ball. gonna go tannin again and borrow a dress and ill hopefully be hott enough for all the seniors : P SAT's are that mornin tho, not excited : /

ok that was a pointless entry. nap time, i have a huge headache. not in too good of a mood, jack johnson will fix that <3

how do u feel?

2005-05-01T03:06:50Z

blah.

i havent gotten sleep in a few days. and yet i still waste my time and do nothin.

me and matt broke up. it was for the best. makes me sad, obviously, but honestly it also comforts me in a way cus i know that he still cares for me....doin that to save more heartbreak. idk im gonna start rambling, so ill stop right here. w/e. still friends tho, better than last time. 10 times better. i just wish he didnt have to go through all this stuff, while i stand there and watch him walk around half asleep knowin he had to work all night. he deserves so much better in my opinion, more respect in a way. i dont wanna lke reveal everythin its just that like things he goes thru not many ppl have to, thank god, and never should. never ever should. and yet again i stand there and try to help but i have no idea what im doin. its my job as friend, not girl friend (harder), to help my lil mattypoo.

my friday was fun filled. me and sam ate cocoa puffs out of a huge plastic salad bowl with a huge plastic salad spoon. yep took pics too, just check em out on her lj : ) dorks. then went to kyles to play frisbee wtih matt and kyle in the street, then left those show offs to go tannin but got sidetracked by havin to pee at bill grays, gettin food at burger king, and hangin out with jake in the bill grays parking lot for a while. then went to tannin finally, got to sams and then left sams. gah.

dan and iv took us to chase pitkin to visit steph and went to fosters. i missed dan alot. made me miss old times tho, agreein with sam. picked up steph and met up with sam pitts and peter morris. those kids are so funny. went to javas, my fav place right now. i stared at hott ppl, had fun, and walked on tables. yup and acted pretty ghetto at the same time.

got to sams house then left an hour later for andys. i love andy and elliot drury. just dont ever drive with them, theyll kill you somehow. hung out there, poor sammy didnt feel good. then went home prety late and fell asleep enjoyin every fuckin min of it.

finished prom shoppin today. gah haha so much. got a bra, sooo coool haha, a hand bag, a diamond bracelet, and diamond chandelier earrings. so pretty. cant wait, 7 days till prom. then came home and slept again, and then headed to work at 4. me and steph should never ever be placed next to each other when working, really bad idea. we seriously cried laughing, made me hapy cus she wasnt too happy last night even tho i tried hard to let my bad mood (sorta) get to her cus she was bout to cry the whole night. bad night at work and faimily shit. poor girly, i love her.

im home alone right now, should be studyin cus i dont have time tomorrow. im so fuckin dumb.

would it really matter

2005-04-29T01:42:41Z

um idk what im doin on...i have so much to do.

life is pretty....ok these days. aside from gay stresses and shit involving me and my "love life". other than that im happier these days, thank god. work is payin me alot. thats another plus to my life.

ppl have so many diff opinions buot all this its so overwhelming and i find myself crying about it. its nuts. gah and prom is next fuckin weekend. samuel pitts is my date, so exciting. i still HORRIBLE bout the whole ball thing, ehhh. i gotta fix this, or just keep apologizing or something. gah. gaaahhhhh. suggestions ne one? im such a bitch, and a skank, and a confused naive lil girl.

ok enough venting, vague venting that is. no one prolly knows what the hell im talkin bout.

me and matt went to starbucks the other day and it was....scary. well what was scary was like how sad we were, we're both really stressed. i give him credit tho, he has so much shit, more intense than mine. i feel so dumb. and he feels selfish. its never balanced lol. then i went to his house before work today and refused to play with him cus i was waaaaay to busy mingling with his two new lil kittens. omg they were the size of my hands, so fuckin adorable. theyre named simon and garfunkel hahahahaha.

uhhh the next week is hell. thats all im gonna say...except im somewhat tan. and that always makes me happier, acutally im kinda red to tell the truth haha.

alright hw time.

i overheard you were unhappy too

2005-04-23T04:57:26Z

idk like what im doing/thinking/feeling these days, but honestly i dont fuckin care. im willing to take the chance b/c thats how i feel and thats the kind of person i am. i hate the feeling where you think "what if i did this and what if this happened and what if he really did mean it and what if it is something big". i hate that, i hate those imaginative things where ur mind takes over and kills you. thats why id rather take a risk and find out myself, totally hands on. i know the public will hate me, and i feel like i know why....buuuuutttt im not defending him or me, just sayin that its me. totally me. all me people! maybe i am being naive, maybe i am being totally blind, but what i am being is me....im being the person that i want to be...an experimentive person thats really OPEN MINDED.

eveyrones worried im gonna get hurt again. yea? so what if i do. nothin new. but i like him so much, i just idk i cant explain it. alright my brain hurts haha, im seriuosly done tryin to make ppl understand. u either hate this or u like it or u have no problem with it. and you can tell it to my face, but what matters is that right now we're tryin our best to work this out and make it better. it showed when i snuck out last night and we sat in his car for 2 and a half hours overlookin the city of rochester and all its lights....and just talking about everything. and theres a diff now too.

ok enough of that. went tannin today for the first time in my life. can i just say how fuckin excited i am to be like not pale soon. so fuckin excited. and i talked to jon today...and hes tan so hopefully it wont peel off by monday so i can see how sexy my lil jonypoo looks after he came from myrtle! ugh i wish i culd get trashed everyday on a beach. so jealous right now.

worked hard all day. ok not really but ouchies i walked all over chase pitkin lol. then rented achorman with my daddy. havent seen it yet tho cus i decided to coop myself up in my room and do some intense hw...on a friday night durin spring break. o dear how pathetic.

4/20 was good at andys. haha enough said.

o god idk what im doin up...i have to work at 10 in the mornin..then go tannin, then get a haircut, then dye my hair, then go to my cousins bday, then BC night i hope. gah busyness.